totally some legit epicness about to happen.

Sorry I have not blogged but there is the best one ever coming your way by the end of the week.
Be prepared. And I loved yours a lot.

and please share some sunshine.....I'm cold in NY

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So today I spent the day with my darling niece and we(we as in me) watched Julie and Julia and idk if you've seen it or anything but its about Julie cooking through Julia Childs cookbook and at the same time it gives Julia Childs story, but anyways in the movie there is this lady that Julia had been pen pals with for 8 years and they had never even met. Can you imagine that having a best friend that you have never met. But it sorta reminded me of me and Abbie, because, even though I have met her and all that, the most we have been communicating lately is through blogs and texts, which is fine because we are both really crazy busy, but thats how we stay in contact is though blogging back and forth instead of writing back and forth I wonder if Julia Childs and her friend were still alive if they would blog back and forth?

I found my camera battery :) It has seriously been lost since December-which meant no taking pictures for 3 months! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! I was going a little crazy, but as a way to kick off my first of 4 days off I got to get out and take some pictures, which I am currently in the process of editing yay, it was very theraputic, and I found a old tub in the middle of a field it was pretty gross but made for some pretty legit pictures. :)

I should major in slacking

I'm a terrible student. I really have been a major slacker lately I have 5 quizzes and all the reading to do before midnight and I am currently watching a movie and blogging, which sort of is the definition of slacking...Oh btw my niece is the cutest girl baby( obviously Bean is the cutest boy baby) in the world, so yeah, she had the hicups the other night and it was adorable. she is too cute. I love her to pieces..and i am now going to eat Animal Crackers and continue to slack.

i like Texans

me and tim are creeping and i think texas is lovely

Oh right I almost forgot.

I also don't really think the frieght guys are creepy anymore. They are actaully really funny and fun and may be my favorite group to work with. Thats who I worked with most of the night and we had a really fun time.

change isn't always bad

I love love love love love love love my job. It's really like a fun place to work and its just fun. Oh and I'm an Aunt :) AHHHHHHHHHH! I'm so excited she is sooo beautiful and perfect and pretty and cute :) I just want to hold her all the time until she cries then I can give her back which is the beautiful thing about being an aunt haha!So yes my freak-out is over, it's just its really obnoxious to have to hear about everyone getting engaged and sometimes its frustrating but, God is good and I know both Andy and I will know when it's time. And it is a good thing to learn some patience and grow spirtually, individually and as a couple because like Marriage is like a big deal. Okay I was think about changing to tumblr(copy cat I know) but then I decided that I don't so well when things change and I like blogspot and i'm sorta on a google kick and I would feel like I'm cheating on my google web browser if I used a non google blogger. Yes I am a nerd. I am really dirty from work and I need to shower, but I am really tired from work so I need to sleep, but I am really behind on home work from the accident so i need to do that, so instead I am doing what I always do when my mind is on overload. Blog.
I miss my friends. I feel like the only people I talk to are Abbie and sometimes Mel. It's sad. I miss how Jake would divulge his deepest darkest secrets about all the girls he like and we would just sit and talk for hours about his love life. I miss Lexi and her vocabulary. I miss being frustrated by Jon and Nick. I miss Jennys laugh. I miss Mel's morning bus rides. I miss too many things about Abbie to even list. I wish I could go see them and I wonder why it wasn't in Gods plan for me to see them yet. But I know that eventually we will all be in Heaven for an eternity and we will have forever to sit around and laugh. And we are all right where God wants and needs us to be.
I hate commas, I never know when to use them. I just put random commas everywhere becuase I feel like if people just glance at something they think that the commas are right. I'm not really sure why I despise the English language so much. I combine words that shouldn't be combined, I put apostrophes and commas in the wrong place, I hate spelling, I'm not even really sure what a colon or semi-colon is or why you can't just use a comma. I have to write a paper and I was thinking about all the reasons why I don't like writing papers when I love to free write. But my mind wanders I hate having to be confined into a small box of rules and I also despise grammer(according to spellcheck I spelt this wrong). I just like to let my brain flow. Like sometimes I'll go back and read a blog or something in my journal and realize how funny it was spelt or somethings.
It's really windy here.
I should go to bed but I can't stop thinking.
I'm getting a new car. A Subaru Forester. Like Jennys only newer and red. I think I have mentioned this before, but I get to go pay for it tomorrow and I'm really excited. Being cooped up with no freedom all week has been seriously killing me. I think too much when I don't have anything to do. Like now. I need to sleep but I don't have anything to do so I'm thinking....
I feel like this blog is quite the roller coaster. I hate roller coasters they make me sick. But I love the water rides. They're my fave. I cannot wait until summer. Warm and sunny days. Working outside a lot, running outside, swimming, getting really sunburnt(lets face it I'm a whitey) :)
Goodnight

Patience is a virtue...Just not one I possess.....

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I really wish I did not have to be patient. I really really really really wish I didn't have to be. Like seriously, if one more of my friends get engaged to a boy who she has been dating for a shorter amount of time than me and Andy I will spontaneously combust. Like seriously all the couples that like are our age, and started dating either around the same time or after us are engaged and married. It sucks. I love them all and am sooo happy for them but seriously, why can that not be Andy and I???? Why, why why why why why?? God and I are in a fight about this. Not really but I'm just so tired of waiting, not like tired like I don't want to wait anymore, becuase I love Andrew and will marry him, even if it doesn't happen until we are 90. I just hate only seeing him once a week, and I just want to be able to like make him dinner, and be his wife and do all the wifey things. And quite honestly it is so hard. and I hate waiting.

my tree-hugger mobile

Okay so God is really great! I am hopefully getting a new car as soon as Saturday. It's a 2002 Subaru Forester. Like Jenny's but a little newer. I'm super excited! This blog is going to take me a very long time to accomplish because I'm trying to watch the new NCIS so I can only blog on commercial breaks, but we DVRed it so we could watch American Idol which makes commercial breaks like 5seconds which is awesome but obnoxious when you are trying to accomplish something during the commericial breaks. But anyways, I go back to work tomorrow, I'm excited, but a little nervous and really glad that I do not have to drive and that there is still going to be a few more days until I have to drive again, because lets face it, I'm a little scared to drive again, I really do not want to get in another accident. But my new car, well I really shouldn't say its mine yet, loan and such has to be approved and all that jazz (my parents and I agreed that I was responsible enough to have a low car payment and get a newer used car. YAY, ironic, I get in a car accident and my parents deem me responsible, huh?) But anyways my dad dubbed it "The Tree Hugger Mobile" because Jenny is from Oregon and Oregon has Tree hugger's and Jenny drives a Forester, ergo(I added ergo, my dad doesn't use fancy words) Foresters are tree hugger mobiles. haha I love dads and their lines of thinking, but then I went on about how I wanted it to go hiking and camping, which usually requires 4wd and lots of mud and Andy and I do this alot, my dad looked at me and went "exactly a 'Tree Hugger Mobile'". So I officially dubbed it the tree-hugger mobile. so yeah I understand that this blog is sorta pointless but I thought I would share my current life with you, and I am super bummed that Lynchburg will not see my darling face for awhile :(

Correction

So I just read through my last post and realized I wrote "and since Home Depot likes children(or kids i don't remember)" I would just like to clarify that this sounds sort of terrible if you have a gutter brain like myself and what I meant was Home Depot likes kids the correct legal appropriat amount.
goodnight

Wait, what its Friday?

Okay so I'm extremely tired and I really need to go to bed because I have to work tomorrow and its going to be really busy because Vermont is stupid and decided to have a tax-free day tomorrow where anything you buy in the state is tax free, and home depot likes children and there is a kids day tomorrow and I'm almost positive tomorrow is Saturday. Wow. Okay so reason for blog is life is on overload. I feel as though when my life is super stressful I tend to blog like 5 bajillion times in a day becuase it really is stress relieving and it helps me empty. But yeah so random story about life, I really love my job, but I'm really tired of being hit-on and asked out by old creepy men, because believe it or not it happens like on a daily basis especially if my work day over laps with some of the guys that work frieght. There is this one guy who I work with that continues to call me hun or hunny evertime I work and seriously I will shoot him eventually. I really feel like there was an actual purpose of this blog, like there was a serious something I had to talk about, but my mind is fried.

yes I am a nerd fighter!

Okay well I'm sitting here debating whether or not I should purchase a John Green Pizza shirt(which you would really have to watch like all 2 years of the VlogBrothers videos on youtube, well maybe not the full 2 years, but u would need to watch a few) and I decided that since its late at night and I feel like not doing work, I'm going to blog. Okay so to update my last post, Andy and I talked, I am cool I wrote him this 3 page letter(I wrote a letter because I am much better at writing my thoughts then speaking them) about why I thought I had that dream, which is really between me and him. but this was not like a blah blah blah letter, there were some really serious things in there and things that I told him that if they didn't change we couldn't continue on. So I left it in his room this morning and all day I was freaking out, what if he doesn't agree? What would I do? So I prayed and continued to freak out, but when I turned on my phone, I got a simple txt that said "i totally agree, love you, call me when your home" and like that was so awesome. Like obviously Andy and I have been dating for 2 years so I know that this is where God wants me but sometimes its really nice to have reassurance. So yeah we are good and my train has stopped de-railing.
I really like this. Its an endless pit where I can just throw all my thoughts when my mind is completely on overload, and I know that when you have time you pick them up and think about them with and for me, and its really great. It so stress relieving. I think that if everyone in the world had a blog where they felt completely secure in just throwing all of their thoughts into on place, the world would be a better place (haha okay maybe I won't go that far) but it is very stress relieving to know that not only am I getting all these thoughts off my chest but I'm actually talking to you about them with out having to open my mouth, because I fail at communicating.
Oh right also, okay so the blogs I mentioned earlier, okay well basically about 2 years ago John and Hank Green(2 brothers) decided they would go 1 year with text less communication. They would strictly communicate using video blogging. So anyways it became this huge thing and they started this organization called nerd fighters(of which Andy and I are both apart of) and its basically this huge community of really awesome people who love awesome and youtube. But anyways there is this one guy Tom who got hit by a car and has been in and out of consciousness for the past week and it would be really awesome if you could pray for him.

I thought dreams were supposed to be fun!

Okay so I had probably the worst dream ever last night. I dreamed that Andy and I broke up, well that he broke up with me, and since I woke up its like all I can think about, and is sorta making for a terrible day.I don't even know why I would dream such a terrible thing, or like why it is geting to me so much, but like seriously every time I even start to think about it I cry.
This is miserable.