change isn't always bad

I love love love love love love love my job. It's really like a fun place to work and its just fun. Oh and I'm an Aunt :) AHHHHHHHHHH! I'm so excited she is sooo beautiful and perfect and pretty and cute :) I just want to hold her all the time until she cries then I can give her back which is the beautiful thing about being an aunt haha!So yes my freak-out is over, it's just its really obnoxious to have to hear about everyone getting engaged and sometimes its frustrating but, God is good and I know both Andy and I will know when it's time. And it is a good thing to learn some patience and grow spirtually, individually and as a couple because like Marriage is like a big deal. Okay I was think about changing to tumblr(copy cat I know) but then I decided that I don't so well when things change and I like blogspot and i'm sorta on a google kick and I would feel like I'm cheating on my google web browser if I used a non google blogger. Yes I am a nerd. I am really dirty from work and I need to shower, but I am really tired from work so I need to sleep, but I am really behind on home work from the accident so i need to do that, so instead I am doing what I always do when my mind is on overload. Blog.
I miss my friends. I feel like the only people I talk to are Abbie and sometimes Mel. It's sad. I miss how Jake would divulge his deepest darkest secrets about all the girls he like and we would just sit and talk for hours about his love life. I miss Lexi and her vocabulary. I miss being frustrated by Jon and Nick. I miss Jennys laugh. I miss Mel's morning bus rides. I miss too many things about Abbie to even list. I wish I could go see them and I wonder why it wasn't in Gods plan for me to see them yet. But I know that eventually we will all be in Heaven for an eternity and we will have forever to sit around and laugh. And we are all right where God wants and needs us to be.
I hate commas, I never know when to use them. I just put random commas everywhere becuase I feel like if people just glance at something they think that the commas are right. I'm not really sure why I despise the English language so much. I combine words that shouldn't be combined, I put apostrophes and commas in the wrong place, I hate spelling, I'm not even really sure what a colon or semi-colon is or why you can't just use a comma. I have to write a paper and I was thinking about all the reasons why I don't like writing papers when I love to free write. But my mind wanders I hate having to be confined into a small box of rules and I also despise grammer(according to spellcheck I spelt this wrong). I just like to let my brain flow. Like sometimes I'll go back and read a blog or something in my journal and realize how funny it was spelt or somethings.
It's really windy here.
I should go to bed but I can't stop thinking.
I'm getting a new car. A Subaru Forester. Like Jennys only newer and red. I think I have mentioned this before, but I get to go pay for it tomorrow and I'm really excited. Being cooped up with no freedom all week has been seriously killing me. I think too much when I don't have anything to do. Like now. I need to sleep but I don't have anything to do so I'm thinking....
I feel like this blog is quite the roller coaster. I hate roller coasters they make me sick. But I love the water rides. They're my fave. I cannot wait until summer. Warm and sunny days. Working outside a lot, running outside, swimming, getting really sunburnt(lets face it I'm a whitey) :)
Goodnight