A youtube epiphany!

http://www.youtube.com/user/vlogbrothers#p/u/9/Nyhv80HDSj4
Okay so first off please watch this youtube video before you read this!
Alright! So now that your equipped with the proper knowledge I can now continuing in explaining what just happened. So lately I have been going through this whole umm well I really don't know if photography is what I want to do. And like what if I'm really not that good at it. And like well maybe I can just major in something easier than that. and blah blah blah. And like I haven't really wanted to tell anyone because I feel like I would get the whole like "no you're really great, blah, blah blah" But in my head I'm like oh right well they're just saying that and so on. But as I'm watching this youtube video I'm thinking even if I do suck (which I really don't think I suck)it's okay because like even the most famous of all photographers in the world we're beginners once. And yes there needs to be a sliver of natural talent but for the most part, all things are learned whether we realize or not. Like talking and walking just seem like natural things, but we even sucked at that once too. I feel like a random youtube video is a wierd place to get this whole new motivation on life but it happened. So yeah it's sorta wonderful. Now if I could only find my camera batteries. :(
Oh yeah PS! I'm buried in the snow.

Dear Abbie,
Well first off I would like to say that I am so exauhsted that I can barely keep my eyes open so please don't laugh at me if this doesn't make any sense. Secondly, wow life is crazy!!! It has been one of those days. I was almost late for work becuase some loser forgot that we live in upstate NY and forgot how to drive in the snow so he drove 5mph the entire way there. Then I had to work with this one girl who literally makes me want to slam my head up against the wall for hours rather than talk with her(I do really love my job a lot but sometimes....)then I was just having bad luck with like all my orders and had to call for numbers because they didn't have stickers or I rang it up wrong or the coupon wasn't in the system or blah blah blah. So all day I'm looking at the girl I don't like and in my head going "love her like Jesus, love her like Jesus, love her like Jesus"(apparently those aren't just magic words that make you like someone, who knew) then I was looking at the register screen that was flashing, beeping and yelling at me thinking "you love your job, do all things withuot complaining, you love your job do all things with out complaing...." apparently those aren't majic words either. And I have butt loads of work to do. and I can't spell. please help me.
love,
lonely New York girl.

mind is on overload.

Okay so the answer to the question in your head is yes, I have already blogged once today but seriously I have really quick great news to share. Okay well as I have mentioned previously I really really really love my job. Well since I love my job I have been working extra hard to get my other department certifications done(aka PK's so if you see me mention PK it's home Depot lingo not Preachers Kid which quiet frankly still throws me off from time to time). So anyways I finished my Garden PK today which consists of 4 web based classes reading 3 pamflets 2 booklets and filling out a Booklet and taking some quizzes online. I knew that I was going through quickly but I wasn't really understanding how well I was doing until today. Because as I finished today I was informed that so far, as much as my 4 managers knew, I was the only one in the store to finish a PK with in the first 90 days of working there. So anyways I am like super proud of myself and like all the managers and people are really proud too.
Thats what I had to share
And please share some snow

I woke up a whole extra hour early this morning. I'm not really sure how it happened it just did. So now I'm stuck trying to fill up my extra hour of time. I'm such a schedule person its really hard for me when things like me spontaneously waking up an extra hour happens. I'm sitting here in my covers listening to my dads truck run and the country channel on the TV in the living room, my dad is convinced that my dogs like country and destroy less things in the house when its on, even though he hates country. My dads truck has seriously been running for like an hour. He always does this, starts his truck and then gets distracted talking to all his guys(We own a construction business)it's really pretty comical. Other news I really think that my life is going to be in overload mode soon, 18 credit hours and 40 hours a week at work may be the end of me, but I need the money and the education so I really shouldn't complain. I feel really bad about Mel and Timmy, like I know that like she went to Virginia and then like we couldn't all come down and he like rally didn't get to talk to her and stuff its just confusing because like she left New York and was like telling me about how like he was the boy that matched everything she wanted and he would fit so well into her family and like now she likes someone else and Timmy is like soo sad. And like I'm not mad at her at all, its just like I really really hate to see Timmy so sad, he's like a brother to me. But it's not really any of my business to be worried about it God has a plan thats bigger than all of us, and sometimes things just don't make any sense at all to us but God knows why he's doing it. But yeah, have I mentioned that I really love my job. I got to learn how to mix paint the other day and it was so much fun. I feel like I am going to learn something everyday and that is really exciting to me. :)
Well, have fun in the snow.

And how was your shopping experience today?

Oh boy oh boy oh boy. I had my first day on the floor (that is just cool kid speak for the pleace where all the products and cash registers are) It was crazy! Fun and enjoyable! But crazy!! I really enjoy it a lot like a lot of people laugh when I tell them that I work at Home Depot but it is really a wonderful place to work for the most part everyone is really wonderful and always are really nice and willing to help me. So yeah I'm exhausted but it is totally worth it.
Other news I got asked to be a youth leader at church. We have about 9 girls and 9 boys(there actually may be more boys than that) and they need another girl leader and Hollie asked me!!! Its totally awesome because like I've been really praying and praying and praying pretty much pleading with Him to like show me why I'm here and like how He wanted me here and why He wanted me to come home and BAM! I love when God just bluntly answers prayers like that it makes my heart smile. Okay so I'm sitting here watching TV and typing away and I was just thinking have you ever wondered what life would be like if it were one giant movie. Every time anything you didn't like would happen you could just be like CUT!!!! everyone would freeze and you could do it over yet. I feel like it would be cool and very lame at the same time. It actually really explains why most stars are retarded.
Okay I'm done with my rant.

Fertilizers, lumber, and customer service!

Okay so, I know that Ground Hog's day is all a wise tale but still it is very discouraging when on your way to work at it 7 degrees outside to hear on the radio that some stupid, little, mean animal saw its stupid, little, mean shadow so now everyone is saying there is going to be 6 more weeks of shivering coldness! Who ever created that stupid discouraging tradition is so lame. Anyways I'm done complaining! I like my job so far. Training is sooooo boring. But I started with this one guy Tim and he's pretty cool. Pretty much we are the only two people under the age of 45 and don't smell like stale cigarettes so I'm pretty sure we'll be stuck like glue haha. But he's pretty much a combo of me and Timmy. He's a photog major and he's a pro painter! And he has the name Timmy! Haha.
I really miss my friends. I really didn't think it would be this hard to not see them. But it sucks. I really hate hearing about all the things they did and I couldn't be a part of it because I'm back is silly new york! But God is good and I know He's got a plan it just really stinks to not fully understand it. I wish I could get just a glimpse of the big picture.
But good news! That is seriously not allowed to even be spoken and andy may shoot me for even putting it up here. In fact I know he will but I need to get it out! CHRIS AND JEN ARE HAVING A BABY! which means I'm going to be an auntie AGAIN! I mean seriously like even if Andy and I never get married, even though we probably will, and unless it was like a terrible break up, there's no way I still wouldn't be Auntie Heather to all his siblings children. :)
I started a group on facebook and invited all the lovely faces that I miss so terribly. I thought it would be a cute little way to let them all know that I really really miss them all :)
ttfn

I want to ride my bicycle.....

So I'm sitting here listening to music and The Bicycle song came on by Queen and it really really really made me miss my friends. Mostly because I can remember me and Abbie randomly bursting into song. And the time we sang it all the way to downtown Lynchburg because we were going to ride bikes.
I really really wish life turned out the way we planned it to sometimes.